Where to begin? Part 2

[Dawgs]

Thank you, Thornton. It's almost as if you are my guardian angel keeping me in check.

That's what we call cake eating around here. If you are ok with never having her respect, allowing her to do what she pleases when she pleases, and you get to occasionally see her and spend time with her, and then feel crappy afterward and long for her until the next time she has time to fit you in her calendar, that's really your call.

I understand that totally. Our situation is like this: The base is roughly an hour away with no traffic, meaning she usually gets home between 6 and 630 (not including duty days that require more hours) at the latest on rare days. We usually put the kids down around 8. She usually falls asleep by the time the kids do, so there really isn't all that much contact now. The weekends, we take the kids and do stuff with them or just stay home and yard/house work. That's pretty much it, except with the rare occasion of us doing something like earlier this week. She doesn't go out on the weekends, either, unless it is with us. You are right, I do feel crappy and long for her...

Not trying to be a jerk, E. But we're going to keep it real with you.

Ya'll aren't being one at all. In fact, the harsher the better for me.

Do you have a therapist of counselor you can talk with? Have you been to the doctor to see if anti-depressants make sense?

I do have an IC that I see weekly. She is awesome and also tells me like it is. Not only about the relationship (actually, that's pretty little of our talk), but we mainly talk about me and making me better.

Make it through today. And then start over and make it through tomorrow. There were days I didn't know if I would last until the end of the day. In those instances, I made goals to make it through the hour, and then another hour.

That's what I do. Or try to, anyway. Sometimes I just hate things.