Have had a couple of sort of rough days. I'll go hours at a time and feel totally detached and not thinking about WW or the D. But then will have waves of sadness or anger hit me and last for a while, then seem to subside. At least the downs are getting less frequent, but the anger, if anything, seems to be coming on stronger. I'm sure it's all part of the ride, but really getting sick of the ups and downs.

Also, I heard from WW's father yesterday. He asked for my help this weekend with doing some yard work. He's currently fighting a pretty severe back injury and I had previously offered to assist however I could, so I'm glad he reached out that way. He's a very proud, independent man, and rarely asks anyone for help, so I'm sure it was humbling and he must really need it. So he's taking me to breakfast Sunday morning then I'll spend a few hours on the yard.

We spoke briefly about him meeting the OM recently, and I asked what he thought. He said the guy seemed level-headed but much older than he expected. He also thought that WW was acting irrational, was not going to end up happy in the long run, and he was glad I had primary custody of the kids. He confided to me that his first wife, from over 35 years ago, had left him for his best friend at the time, so he understands what I'm going through. I had never heard that was what happened before, so I'm glad that he trusts me enough to confide personal info, and hope that I can continue to have a relationship with all of WW's family, who after this many years have become my family too.


Me 47 W 42
T 24 yrs M 18 yrs
W living with OM
BD1: 3/7/2015 (A with OM#1)
BD2: 4/11/2015 (A with OM#2, W moves out)
WW filed for D, papers received 9/18/2015.
Meeting to determine child custody 9/29/2015.