Where to begin? Part 2

[Dawgs]

So, I am sitting here at work (it is a slow day) wondering how all of this mess happened. Just how does everyone not think of their situation? I seriously have trouble shelving things and am down a bit now. I just can't stop thinking about my W and the M. The sad thing is, I have a gut feeling that my M is over yet I want it to be fixed more than anything. I guess another poster's thread about the holidays really hit me.

And then there was the whole FIL thing that also got me to thinking. I just don't know how much more of this I can take. For the majority of time, the only things I do with the W are family centered. With her moving to another base in a couple of months, I just can't see not doing this, although I know I need to really cut our contact. My thinking is that our young kids need the family unit and will more than ever when she leaves.

I try so hard to put on the good face, yet my heart is breaking so bad inside. I just never understood how someone could be so loving up to Valentine's Day turn around and BD in March.

Right now its my kids keeping me grounded. If not for them, I just don't know.