I feel insecure today. I need advice, reassurance, smacked upside the head, etc.

Am I doing right? It feels wrong, which is why I ask, I guess.

I screwed up and had the R talk/ kids stuff talk 3 days ago. Said things that I shouldn't according to DB. Floodgates opened and still managed to stick my foot in my mouth, while talking around it. I have NC since, and won't until she breaks radio silence. I think she would call me if the boys need something.

I'm worried and want to make sure that I do the best I can. Doing nothing is hard work. I know that sounds dumb, but it's mentally tough!

Thoughts?

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3 boys
Not my circus, not my monkeys anymore....