There are 2 central issues that keep setting me back. First, I feel like if I don't try to make connections, or show intimacy towards my W she will just grow further and further apart.
Second, the betrayal really, really hurts. Still. The fact that I have no trust, and assume she still talks to OM (they have to occasionally for work at the very least) makes it hard for me to stay calm during our arguments. I keep giving in and getting in heated, drag-em-out fights.
TL2 - why do you think that during the 9 year period where you were re-engaged she didn't fully commit herself?
