I too have felt this way. I felt this way just 3 days ago. Every time I start feeling like suicide is the answer I am reminded of a couple of things. My children will be forever damaged. The last thing I want to do is hurt them.
The other thing that I am reminded of is what my mentor, a person I really respect told me. "The only thing more selfish than and Affair and subsequent Divorce, is Suicide." That really hit home with me. I know the pain this A has caused me and my family. I know how it is going to affect the Legacy of my WW and her thoughts about herself one day. Suicide is not what I want my legacy to me. I do not want my last actions on this earth to be considered selfish. It is not who I am and it is not how I want to be remembered.
I hope you feeing better today.
Me: 30's W: 30's M: 12yrs EA: Started 3/2015 MC Started: 4/2015 She moved out and served 6/2015 PA: Confirmed 10/5/2015 2 young kids
"If you do not stand for something you will fall for anything."
