Hi Rouky I am not well. I am overwhelmed by all of this. Not sure if it's the medication making me this way. Going back to the doctor Monday so something has to give. I am struggling with the after effects of the cancer treatment and trying to get my strength and my weight back. I am hating that I have to sip water with every bite of food. Weird things happen in my throat at night and I have trouble swallowing. I just want to feel normal again. I have so many things to get together for the divorce that I can't make myself start on it. Every time I look at it I just give up. I feel like I have burdened my family and friends and I am reluctant to talk to them. What you are going through is bad as well and I hope that you don't get dragged down by reading this. You have so much going for you and your husband is an idiot for putting you through that.
As for GAL I am still going to the gym and taking yoga. I am not getting the lift from it that I used to though. I think I need to change up my routine a bit. I wish I had a workout buddy. Want to go to the gym Rouky? I need to be getting out more socially but I'm just too down to go anywhere.
Plans for the weekend? Going to work Saturday evening. I have to miss my S playing music because of that. It's the first time I have ever missed a recital. He was really sweet about it and said it wasn't a big deal.
I am so sad. What do I do here? I just can't pick myself up. When will it get better? I guess I need a pity party! Don't let me bum you out Rouky but it means a lot that you keep checking on me. Thank you.
M:53 W:47 M:15 years. S:18 S's: 30 & 28 from previous marriage. BD: 3/14 Divorced January 17.
