Took a little break form this site. Reading other people's stories and writing my own do definitely help, but sometimes it is overwhelming.
I feel very sad. I guess after the first shock passed, it's taking a toll on me. Evey little thing reminds me of good times, what we did, where we went etc...I know it's not doing any good to me, but I can't help it. Fortunately I've been doing that only to myself and not in front of H. Then I tell myself I do not want to give up. I'm going back and forth between hopeless to hopeful.
This week I realized I really need to put more effort to distance/detach myself from H. I have been doing that half-heartedly and probably H could see that. I have not followed him around the house physically, but I have been doing that mentally if you know what I mean... I need to stop that.
It's been two months and I'm exhausted. But now is not the time to fall into a slump. Stay focused.
