Where to begin? Part 2

[Dawgs]

Thank you, Sandi, for another round of help and kick in the pants when I need it!

Sandi, may I ask you for more advice? The more I think on things the more I see you are correct. For example, we did a family day trip over the weekend to a place our kids love. We all had a great time. I mentioned on the way home that it was a nice time and she agreed, although I couldn't tell if it were from her heart.

When she talked of the family trip, she said that she wanted to reiterate that we are separated and that she didn't want me to give false hope or the like. She texted me about the trip and I answered by saying something like it will be fun and who knows where it will lead (I realize now I shouldn't have said that), to which she answered right now she isn't looking for things to lead anywhere.

I want to think that the EA is over and has been for a while, especially when I told her I won't share and to choose. Due to her job and travel times to/from work, I am pretty sure that there isn't an A as she is home fairly early enough and on the weekends she doesn't go out, or take "extended" shopping trips (really, no shopping without us), or the like.

I am trying so hard to follow everything. I don't text (as I said a little while ago, I keep a journal of what I want to text, which eliminates that need), call, email, or the like. I am nice at home and show her that am not moping or the like. I am really working on my confident self, too. Getting back to where I was when we met. Maybe I am too nice of a guy...

Have you ever....EVER....seen or heard anything to lead you to believe she could be gay or has thought about experimenting? Have you said anything to anyone where it could have gotten back to her mother?

Honestly, I have never said anything about being gay to anyone...I would be too embarrassed to even do that. Thinking back, I am not sure on seeing anything. I mean, she keeps cutting her hair shorter and shorter - almost boy like now.

I do, however, think my W is in the midst of a MLC. Here is why - less than a month after BD, she buys a jeep, gets younger clothes, etc. Even "talks" differently - saying things like "sweet" (which she never used to do) or even cursing more. When I mentioned "what was that" she stopped talking that way... Is that a sign of a MLC?