Where, oh where am I?

[Azzork]

YET, we can see online when he quickly "checks in" as he changes the status to "online" and then quickly changes it back to "away"

Is there a way you can stop yourself from checking this? If you couldnt see his status, you wouldnt get hurt by this behavior. There is no way to know what his reasons are, but you are mind reading to find the worst one.

In some ways, I wish I didn't talk to H at all. This hurts. It hurts to not have his support. It hurts to hear him refer to my Dad as almost a stranger. He's not going to call my Dad. He said "Well, tell everyone I say hi."

So how do you start to detach from him? How do you stop calling him and let him call you if he wants?

I'm still stuck here alone with all of the burdens and I'm feeling like there's no hope.

So how do you get unstuck....I'll give you a hint....It starts with a "G"....

I finally had my own scans done yesterday. Didn't get a good vibe from the technician, but that could just be my paranoid state since so many things are crashing down around me right now. Thinking about the possible results of this scan - well, I guess scary b/c of the unknown. I hope my doctor calls me before next week, otherwise it's going to be a long weekend.

Not positive whats going on with you health wise, but I am certainly hoping for the best for both you and your dad.