I am an emotional wreck this morning. And I know that nothing has changed. Didn't hear from W or kids yesterday. Not really a shock. I can't quit having the expectations that something will change. I can't seem to detach anymore than I have. Like I am stuck. I do however think that if something is going to click for her, it's got to be because she has truly lost me. She still clings to the "let's be friends" crap. That only confuses me, not sure what she thinks she is doing.

I am doing NC, unless it is kids stuff. (Other than 2 nights ago, when I was mad about s8 being hurt)

I haven't moved the rest of my stuff out of the garage yet. Might as soon as harvest is over and I can borrow a truck and trailer.

I am not volunteering for anything. Last time I did, she filed 3 days later.

Need to buy no more Mr nice guy book

Any other ideas on what to do/not to do?

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Not my circus, not my monkeys anymore....