V haven't heard from you in a while hope your doing ok and know I am not upset with you at all! I defiantly see and understand what you were saying! In fact it was made even more clear to me last night! He accused me of telling people be kicked me out! I have never said that I have said he has told me to leave several times but it was my voice to actually do it! He said his mom told him that! I did confront his mom about this as it was no what I said and informed her I am trying to fix me and do best for me! I am trying to salvage at least our friendship and I do not need things that are taken out of context to cause a fight between us! She states it was partially her fault she has no idea how it got brought up but they had a long talk! I'm not sure what they talked about but find it kind of funny for all the times he says he doesn't care about me or our friendship that I was brought up in a conversation! It could have even been talking bad about me or good I have no idea and never will but for not wanting anything to do with me I find it weird to say anything about me good or bad! Just another lesson learned be careful how you word things!
Today we did have a positive interaction which makes two so goAl accomplished! We all had dinner at his parents house for d5's birthday and I went to the house and got his girls clothes and what not called to let him know and he asked me to switch laundry over Grrr I need to learn to say NO!
I also sent a good morning text have a great day and for the first time in a month he did respond with good morning have a great day! I know it means nothing but ate sat it was a response! I won't text the rest of the weekend as I will be busy busy!
I also stood up for what I wanted with a friend tonight which I never do! My daughters dad bought me two tickets to a concert and I asked a friend to go! She asked tonight if her husband could go and just hang in the hotel I really wanted it to be a girls weekend plus he always makes everything miserable when he is with is so I said NO! Hmmm I may be learning something along the way!
I also got another great experience on how not to speak to ur partner! I had a couple standing behind me at d gymnastics and her h was telling her about his job and she turned around and said I wish u didn't tell me these things at night i stress about them and then I can't sleep I had patients telling me how horribly exhausted I was and went off on a tangent all about her! I thought to myself hmmm that would be me I don't want to be like that anymore! She turned his conversation into a pity party about her! I felt like I was looking in a mirror! Must chosw to change this also! I felt bad for the h!
