Please consider asking them to help you wean off the med's shotgun.
While the medical staff are scratching their heads over which med in what dosage and whether to ask you to spin around three times, clockwise or anti-clockwise before taking them and then having to wait 3-4 weeks to see if they are right, you are in a bit of a mess.
Your therapist and/ or doctor should know of (non-chemical based) alternatives and if they don't ask for a second opinion or to speak to someone who does.
Take control shotgun, it might sound like a big ask given how you feel, it might be the best step you ever took in helping yourself. As a fellow who too tried pills and went to a very, very dark place, I know that the alternatives work and my body chemistry isn't infected by man-made substances that are manufactured by money sucking behemoth organisations.
Can you tell I'm quite passionate about this? :-)
- Nobody has ever learnt anything important from happiness and success; problems make us grow - Consult your plan, not your feelings - If you haven't set goals, how can you expect to achieve anything?
