Lonely Hearts Club

[shotgun]

OK so I am sure now that the depression is the Prozac. It has leveled me out, no more extremes in emotions, but I am at too low of a point. My therapist agrees and will evaluate me in one week and will call Dr about adjusting my prescription strength. She stated that she had not seen me this way and was concerned. I feel that I am barely functioning at this point and can barely get out of bed.

I have met someone who is very nice and very attractive. I want to ask her out but I'm not sure I could pull off masking my depression. Hate to screw something up that could be good down the road. Could I keep it very casual and informal and not create too many expectations but still show interest? The whole dating thing is so awkward after so many years.

I have a great son who is very concerned about me. Where will I find the strength to pretend that everything is OK and be able to minimize the damage to him? His future is so bright if I can keep him focused on his talents and his schoolwork. He is asking some tough questions of his mother and she is upset with me about it. Not sure how to deal with it as his questions are based on his observations and on nothing that I have said. I am so thankful to not be the one in her shoes and trying to explain how I could have done that to his other parent.

Asking all here to pray for me to have strength and to be a good father. All I want at this point is for him to not be damaged and to remain focused on his future. Being a parent has always been a strength of mine but I am feeling the weight of the world right now. Could be putting too much thought into what W said about it.