Still in a difficult place. Thought i was shaking off a few things from last night, but she was heading back to another meeting for the separation agreement this morning and she was looking unbelievable. I am not sure if i am just noticing this more or she is trying to get so much more attention from everyone. she was wearing heels and everything for a meeting on a separation agreement.

I have noticed she seemed to be reaching for more attention since the BD. I am not the only one to notice. I have also noticed over the past week or so she started drinking a glass or two of wine a night. she never used to do this. She would actually make a comment if i had one or two drinks more than 2 nights in a row with dinner or after.

I know i need to let go i am watching every move right now. I know this will get a little easier when she is gone but then the loneliness will set in.

just a tough few days.

M 37
W 34

T 12
M 8
D 7
S 4

Need break 4/12/15
W no ring 7/7/15

Separate room 4/12/15
Separate living suggested 8/15
W moved out 11/1/15