Ancaire, you are allowing thoughts to create what your think is your reality and you've got some mental monsters. Is the fact that one call hasn't taken place a basis for completely understanding where things stand? Work towards not allowing a single act to have such a huge influence over you. You can be right because he should have called, or you can do the right thing.
You spent some time away from your H to get some space and to think, that doesn't mean think yourself into a hole. It was to clarify your thinking, set some goals, form a plan and act. What does your plan look like? Are your goals sound? If so, then put the plan into action, if not get back to formulations these key pieces of your strategy.
Consult your plan, not your feelings.
- Nobody has ever learnt anything important from happiness and success; problems make us grow - Consult your plan, not your feelings - If you haven't set goals, how can you expect to achieve anything?