Where, oh where am I?

[asitis]

Wow. When it rains it pours. I'm really sorry that you are having to go through all this.

I would tell H,but do so w/ an eye to its impact on the kids. They will likely bring it up anyway in their next Skype convo, and it would be better to hear it from you and talk about how to reassure and care for the kids while you can't be giving them as much time as they might need while you give some time to your dad. Just don't ask him for support or reach out to him for comfort or to talk about it. That's for those you trust to be there for you, and he hasn't earned that privilege.

I missed what happened Fri @ work. Looked back over the last few pages quickly and didn't see anything that indicated what happened that would cause the termination. I know it may not be a high priority given your dad, but if you want to talk about that, we're here.

Don't feel too guilty about S's performance at missed meet. It won't matter to him that much the reason you couldn't make it, so deal w/ just affirming his feelings and that you want to take him out to celebrate. Maybe special dinner w/ just the two of you. Don't say how proud you are, but talk about how happy you are that he is able to enjoy the satisfying achievement (the former conveys conditional love - which will add to you not being there to recognize his confirm me mommy moment - while the latter makes him feel his own pride and the joy you get from him being happy and fulfilled).

Heart damage can be scarier than it sounds, especially when the doctors start talking about portions of the heart being dead (and God-forbid describe what that looks like, which unfortunately they do to scare the patient straight - which usually doesn't work anyway). Having lost a father to lung cancer, I know the agony of waiting for results and then the discussions of prognosis. We'll have you and your dad in our prayers.

Hang in there. You're stronger than you think, and we're all pulling for you!