My father was admitted to the hospital this morning. Chest pain. My mom let my sisters and I know via text many hours after they had been there. I left work to be with him. Called work and told them I wouldn't be back for the rest of the day (which would only be approximately 30-45min.)
It turns out not only has he had a "silent" heart attack in the recent past which damaged his heart muscle, he is possibly having another one, must be transferred to another hospital for an invasive procedure tomorrow AND they found nodules in his lungs, one fairly large, with lymph node involvement, so they need to rule out cancer.
Oh, and while I was in the hospital, the school superintendent let me know over the phone they are releasing me from employment in light of what happened on Friday.
And I missed S's cross country meet where he ran his best time ever. S told me he was upset I missed his race. It was also a special parent celebration there today.
And my sisters now know that I'm having marital issues.
And I was scheduled to go for my own IC appt. and ultrasound appointments for my continued abdominal and referred lower back pain. I want to cancel them so I can be there for my Dad.
And now I'm thinking, do I tell H? I mean, H has distanced himself, he's left the M. But he's known my father for 21 years. What's the right thing to do? I don't know I could handle the hurt of H not caring.
Times like these are when H would have normally been there for me. Now here I am, Just me.
What am I supposed to do?
I am so worried about my Dad. Crap. I'm sad and I'm still Lost
M 43 H 48 M 19y T 20y D 14 S 12 H returned home from out of country 8/8/15 BD 8/11/15 EA Began end of June/beginning of July 2015; ongoing PA H denies ILYBINILWY
