Hi Py, Also asked what my plans are for Christmas as he and DS are going to MIL house and did I want to come or did I have other plans!!!!
Is he F*&%$(g deluded??? Seriously!!!
yep. [censored] deluded! absolutely. for me, what I would do is rent a kickarse holiday house, invite my friends, son etc. at least have a good xmas yourself. [censored] yours and mine STBX that constantly whinge about being on this merry-go-round - WELL [censored] get off idiot, you are the one perpetuating this. I had a clear cut rejection to deal with, and I did, I am genuinely moving on, genuinely over you. As the perpetrator you have to wrestle your own demons for the rest of your life - great - leave me out of it - I am not part of your life, nor do i want to be, just [censored] off!! sorry - ranting.
no other way to deal with this Smoth. This sux. This has screwed big time with what we thought our lives were and would be. For me my children are being taken away from me. really we have the same choice now that we did on day one - lay down and die, or deal with it. Whilst I have many moments of wanting the former, I choose the latter in general. Dealing with it entails accepting that this is [censored], there will be many moments when you feel like total crap and option 1 is pretty good, one day in the future you will be happy again and not even think of all of these things - not because there will necessarily be some awesome person come along, or life experience, or some grand epiphany, but, as boring as it is, because time will pass.
just ride it out little girl. you're doing great these past few months.
M: 6 T: 12 Kids: 2,4 BD: Jan 2015 S: Feb 2015 EA/PA confirmed: Feb2015/Mar2015
