I know it's all scary, MB. You can do this. You can do hard things, and we are all right here, cheering you on, so impressed with your strength and resilience and compassion and generosity. You have inspired me so many times.
And as much as I don't want to be married to my stbx anymore, I don't want to do this alone. (And I only have one kid!) It's freaking hard. You are such a rockstar and we have lots of virtual hugs for you.
Know that you are loved, and loveable, and awesome.