Well she's leaving on Saturday just as soon as the new flat is ready. She says she needs to do it to find if she can live and be happy. She still has feelings for me but not as a lover more as her best friend. We've been affectionate and had some good moments with our son but the reality is she's going. It kills me inside throughout the day.She knows this guy is no good but she still wants to try. She says she'll understand if it all goes wrong and I don't want her back.She wants to see our son everyday but has given me the last word. I'm not going to say no but it is going to eat me up everytime the door opens. I don't how to act from here. I've broken all the rules by writing a letter saying how I see things from all she said. I was careful not use "I" throughout the letter but reflect her words and ideas from all she has told me but I know it won't do anything now. I just can't get hope out of my head even though I shouldn't. Don't know how act in these last days together and then after when she's with him. It's affecting my concentration on my job and takes all my effort to be strong with my son.
