Cali and Job, I can't thank you enough for your wisdom and support. I think I finally get it. I have been waffling with the stepping back, scared of the outcome and too desperate to try and spend time with H. Something clicked in me last night. Honestly, it was like an out of body experience when I looked at H and said I wanted to go. It was surreal. I feel ready and strong enough to take this stand. I can do this.
Going to send H a message tonight. I know I don't need to, but I feel this need to and have for a while now. It is short and sweet and needs no reply, also explains my quick exit last night.
"Everything about the house on Peet Rd represents what our family, our home and myself were left for. It is hard for me to want to be a part of that...to be honest, overall it is hard for me to spend time together when we are living 2 separate lives. It is not working well for me, I hope you understand"
I say my peace, I pull back, and he will know why. I am ready
Me 48 H 46 S 11 M 2004 BD 8/13 H moved out 2/15 -live in the present, enjoy the beauty around and within you, explore your new future-
