WW has told me several times that her feelings for me are frozen; has no feelings towards me. Please do not judge me or W but a little more insight into sit; and I hope it’s not TMI.
2 years ago, we learned she was pregnant. It was a very difficult decision but we decided to abort. She shares that this event BROKE her and will CRY EVERY TIME she brings it up. She says we are both to blame but will share:
1. She told me that we shouldn’t have sex that night in fear of getting preg (but I insisted).
2. She never thought at age 40 she would have an abortion (relates this to never thought she would have an affair).
3. Because she feels I did not help as much as she would have liked with our 2 boys when they were infants; she did not want to have to carry the responsibilities again (making reference that I was too self-centered and focused on my job/work).
4. That when she went for the procedure I was not there for her. The fact is I did what she asked me to do that day, she told me to just be there for the afternoon appointment when the procedure actually happens. That morning she went to work and from work she went to clinic for the morning check-up. What I learned later was the morning check-up was when they gave her some type of medication. So her reality is I was not there and she tells me that I should have just taken off from work that day without her having to tell me; this is what broke her and there is nothing I can do to change the past. She says because I am very black and white, this example helps me to see how I was not there for her emotionally (supportive); that I was selfish.
Weeks following this event is when the EA started.
