Also, what are your biggest fears besides losing your wife? Or growing old alone?
That is a very, very tough question. I have done some serious soul searching lately and always come to the same conclusion - my biggest fear is losing her. You see, for 10 years (married 7) she has been my best friend, lover, confidant...everything that a "soul mate" is supposed to be. That's one reason why I am still having such a hard time about all this. Last night in the midst of cleaning I found the anniversary card she gave me last year and I almost broke down because it was one of the most loving things I have ever read - and now to turn around and be in this position really less than a year later.
I am not afraid of growing old alone, but I AM afraid of growing old without her. If that makes sense.
There are moments in this life when you are so confident in the rightness of your actions, that not even for a second do you consider the option that you might be wrong.
