I completely understand your feelings brother, I am afraid that my wife would do something to truly make this situation unsalvageable for some time. I feel your pain; continue to pray, forgive, have faith. If the our good Lord wants it to be, it will be. We can't see the whole picture, but need to have faith that it is good.
Focus on yourself, continue to find yourself, continue to use this time to forgive yourself and her, and eventually you will get to a great place. I am on the same journey as you my brother, and want you to come out of this a great man.
God Bless
M: 34 W: 33 S: 7 S: 14 months BD: 6/2015 Separation: 6/2015 Back and Forth between Home and Moms
