I didn't sleep at all last night. On the bright side, it made me realize that I have been sleeping lately, these sleepless nights were the norm for a long time, but now its just an occasional thing. Trying to stay positive!
An idea popped into my head last night, out of the blue, to send MIL flowers. I don't want to be "fake" and I don't want to suck up to her but I got this urge and I don't know why. Maybe if I sign them from the kids, maybe a cute halloween themed floral arrangement, she will know its from me but on behalf of my kids? This type of gesture is very unlike me, especially towards her. I also lit a candle for her in church on Sunday, to pray that she finds peace and that will help her release her hold on H.
Or am I kidding myself and instead of detaching from H just trying to control the outcome through more creative channels. Idk. I just want peace all around.
