PP's WAW Adventure Continues - (8)

[PigPen]

Ok, I'm sulking a lot.

Hey PP, I just posted an update in my thread (finally) and noticed your latest post. I think of you quite often. Honesty and openness are two of your best traits, among many others.

As you are well aware, I have done my share of sulking, too. We all know divorce is one of the most devastating things one can go through. I'm not sure I can say at exactly what point I became "Mr. PMA" (LOL) but it changed my life for the better. Big time! I have probably tripled my circle of great friends (mostly thru Meetup Groups), feel great about myself--maybe better than in my entire 55 year life and feel good about my future. It's taken me almost one full year but I've made it.

I KNOW it's not easy, but try to turn the negative "sulking" energy into positive. How? That's the tough part but you are a smart guy and will figure it out. For me, GAL really helped--along with people such as you in our DB Family.

So, what are you going to do to turn the negative energy into positive? How about getting involved in a charity? (If you are, I apologize--I have a lot of catching up to do.) Live, laugh and list all the good things in your life. For now, focus on that. It's such a cliché, but tomorrow is a new day. Right?

You know I love you like a brother. Work on yourself--you cannot control the situation.

I'll swing by as soon as I can. In the meantime, you will be in my prayers.

Bob

Thank you Bob, it's so great to read of your personal progress and happiness. I'll admit that I'm still stuck in the anger phase of this process. I thrash around at night turning my bed into a battleground and wake up with so much rage.

The weight room helps, surfing helps, but at the end of the day I'm one second away from being consumed by it. I'm not sure if I'm more angry at my WAW or at myself. Or just at the situation itself.

I know I am to blame. I know my WAW had other options than leaving. I'm angry that we're both not together. I'm angry that we have to have attorneys figure out who gets our dog. I'm angry that I'm angry.

Mediation helps, journaling helps, and keeping the thought that this will pass if I'm honest with it helps too. I wish I had your PMA though, you are a freaking rock star.

Big hug to you Bob,

PP