This is tougher than I imagined..

[Cherry]

Hi guys sorry I haven't been on here in ages. I lost my log in and life took over.

How is everyone getting on?

I'm finding it tough some days, it's that place we all want to get to. And when we do it's hard. I feel like he is just acting like nothing happened. He gets quite angry and says how it was all a mistake with ow.

I found out he wants to get in touch with her to get her forgiveness and say get on with her life and he will get on with his. He says this is because the guilt hangs over him knowing she's cursing him. Truth is, I haven't forgiven him fully. And I feel like he should be focused on me- that's selfish but I had images of a grovelling man saying he'd do anything. And he did, he's even cried to me begging me not to ever leave him. But then other days I just feel so unbelievably lonely- like I'm worthless. I explain this to him but he says just because he isn't affectionate doesn't mean he doesn't love me and that I demand too much out of him.