Need a fresh start...but he's still here

[lost18]

Hi Mahhhty, yes it gets to be a lot. There hasn't really been much change. We have not talked about our R at all, it seems like he is more in the door than out.

I have to sit down and jot down my thoughts completely soon so I can keep track of where I've been, where I am and where I want to be.

I will say that I've been somewhat frustrated lately and have to keep reminding myself where I was just a few short months ago. There have been moments where I feel like we are right back into our old marriage (more the last week or so) in our interactions. I guess it boils down to wanting more than he can give. I have the past couple of weeks told myself that I didn't/don't want a divorce (I worked/am working hard to save my marriage) and I may not get all of my needs met, for now I'm ok with that, for now only.

We do go out together, talk about the future (especially regarding his employment and possibly going back overseas, he is about to be released to do so) and have sex at least once a week. So, those are the positives.

No longer lost, just confused!