I am heavy hearted this morning. I am just sitting on my thoughts about how I don't hear from my wife often, only in the mornings and it is usually to talk to the kids. Throughout the day she doesn't reach out, which to me means that somebody or somebodies are meeting that need for her.
She only reaches out during the real hard times, sometimes to talk to me about it, but I can't help it see that in doing so, I always feel the need to rescue her. I wonder if this is part of the reason why she calls or reaches out during these times.
I miss my wife a lot, I know we all do. This is just getting to the point in which I don't know if the reason she reaches out is to be helped out and not because she genuinely wanted to.
I am feeling abandonment, competition, and jealousy. I just can't help think about her many conversations, the ego boosts she is getting, the fact that she shares her days with all of these people; and me? I am hardly reached out to, maybe once a day, if anything for something random sometimes. I don't even understand that, why reach out to me for something random or trivial, especially if you don't reach out to me at all throughout the day to share your day or life anymore.
Today's PMA
Quote of the day:
“There is no easy way out of our circumstances...Sometimes you stick it out even when you want to give up because you know that on the other side is either a better situation or a better you." -Watercrossing (Phantom Island Book 3)”
