Wow, your story is complex. I can't comment with any certainty on what's going on with you and your WAW but can only reflect on my own sitch to see if there are any parallels.
I devour everything Sandi2 says because there is a LOT of of wisdom in there. Some stuff she said that really struck a chord with me was that for a woman desire comes from respect, which extends from a mans confidence. Now I KNOW I had let my confidence slide and became so emancipated I can understand that part very well. That my friend is something that's vital in the bedroom.
The other red flag is on these boards the ILYBNILWY speech usually means an EA or a PA. not always but usually. In those circumstances you're onto a loser because while there is an OM you don't stand much of a chance. Sure there are success stories but let's be honest they are in the minority.
And the gut wrenching thing that took a long time for me to accept is that when you get to this stage (you're here for the third time now?) she's already done. Not willing to work on it.
Which takes me to the 'become a man only a fool would leave'. I know that guy. He was me about 5 years ago. But I allowed myself to slip, badly. Sure we could talk all day about the re writing of history and the hypocracy of her reasons, and Huddy and I will no doubt to that tomorrow but that's not the point. I lost my mojo and am in the process of getting it back by any means necessary.
Good luck my friend.
Me:43 Her:42 M:14 S:9 EA started 2014/03 (or there abouts) PA started 2014/05/30 BD:2014/11/05 I left 2015/10/01 I returned 2015/05/02 She left 2015/06/10 OM still on the go.