Zues, you know what? I grew up in an angry environment. Unfortunately for me, I do not have a close relationship with my father.
I witnessed my father thrashing the house as well. Breaking the furniture, going on a rampage, and hitting my mum. It was terrifying. This is why I never sleep well at night. Because even when I was young, I had this need to make sure that I stayed awake to protect my mum. After all these years, I am still a very light sleeper.
This is also why I never had serious relationships until I met my XH. I was afraid that the men I met would hurt me. (The irony of it) I was afraid of opening up. I was afraid of being vulnerable because vulnerability meant fear. I pushed all those who were interested in me away, because somehow I never felt good enough. I was always afraid that I would end up like my mum.
So anger can scar, and it can scar someone permanently.
You can call me Dory/ Grl.
As a wise fish once sang,"Just keep swimming!"
It's no use to go back to yesterday because I was a different person then.
