The old M has ended and good riddance! There is no way to go but onwards. I will not keep looking backwards; I will look forward.
Moving on, there is no reason to ever to want to R with XH if the dynamics of the old M do not change. And I will know that he is ready to R if he: -takes responsibility for his outbursts and anger issues -willingly continues with the C for anger management beyond what is mandated -will offer to break off all contact with the OW
In the meantime, I will continue with GAL and move on with my life. I will go dim and detach; not possible for a total NC with kid.
You can call me Dory/ Grl.
As a wise fish once sang,"Just keep swimming!"
It's no use to go back to yesterday because I was a different person then.