She Wants Me to Leave....3rd Time in 4 Years

[isittoolate]

3 hour sleep now wide awake. A few things she said.

She knows I love her but she doesn’t love me.

At one stage she was willing to stay together until the boys were grown up and left home – another 7-8 years – but not anymone – she wants happiness.

I asked about January when we sent each other flirty picture messages – sexy photos in underwear – she said it lasted a week – she is right.

I said I regarded her cards to me, Xmas, Valentines, Birthday in May, Anniversary in Sept as temperature checks on our marriage – she wrote in all of them – I Love You. The last one in early Sept said ‘To my Wonderful Husband’ on the front and inside she wrote ‘To my Darling Ian With lots of Love on Our Anniversary! I Love You xxxxxxx

Just words I know.

I know I should ignore all she says – she wants out.

The last 4 years she knows that I've loved her as I can but she hasn't loved me back. She cant love me. Its gone. She has tried and tried.

I think it is lack of sex and real intimacy were we share our inner most thoughts - in that sense last night was more intimate than any other for years.