Still having a hard time today. Guess I wasn't nearly as detached as I thought.
None of us ever are. You love her. Your posts scream it. We all lie to ourselves and say we've detached and don't care anymore but we're actually trying to convince ourselves of that. Sure she has hurt you beyond imagination. I know that hurt well my friend. Yet, even after crushing your heart, you love her. That's not a bad thing. Love is powerful. BTW, she loves you too, she's just f'd in the head right now due to the affair. She's chasing fairy tales and hopefully she'll discover they're not real. Good luck to you. I sincerely mean that.
