I understand the need to just spill it. This forum is such an invaluable tool! I appreciate the way you're there, providing support and guidance for others while traveling this awful path yourself.
I feel sad, though, that you've come to the realization you have. Not all threads will be success stories, but we all want ours to be one. At least you sound positive in your assessment.
My struggle is that my H was really once one of the greatest men I've ever met. Kind, gentle, strong, compassionate...where all that has gone, I can't answer. I just hope if I stand long enough and believe in him, when he's clearly moving away from whom he used to be, I will be able to guide him back to himself. Some days I doubt my strength, but I think the man I love is in there somewhere.
So for me...not really fear of being alone - Don't relish the idea, but could thrive if I had to. I really, truly miss the man I married. So feel free to give me a word of advice or a kick in the pants when I need it.
