Back on these forums again

[Mona52]

I hear ya OG when you said if you can DB, you can sell. So I will try and use the DB techniques to reach my goal.
But really, I think I would rather DB than sell any day. I am petrified that someone will actually read my brochure and call me. I am more scared of that than H calling me!

And this is what I love about DBing. Michelle's techniques pulls us out of the trenches of our M and tries to force us to focus on other things. Things that make us better. It would be my choice to sit and think of H all day. It would be my choice to waste time and energy wondering what he is thinking or doing. Because I have other goals and plans I can use that time and energy thinking about.

I still think about H throughout the day. But it is not the real person. It is this kind of fantasy person I knew 15 years ago. and I only think of him because I get lonely throughout the day for someone who understands me better.

Unfortunately, I am also craving physical attention and that will bring my H into focus more than I want. Last time i DB'ed I encouraged any kind of physical contact with H. This time, it ain't happening, period. So I am stuck with this craving I guess, but that is why God gave me chocolate.

Speaking of chocolate, I have been squeezing more exercise into my day than ever before in my life. I went for a speed walk today at work, and was gone for an hour without realizing it. I felt the burn, but not enough to tire me. I have lost a nice amount of weight because I have been trying hard to lose a little weight. It feels so good that today I bought myself a sweater, and it was not from a consignment shop. Last week I got my hair done. So tomorrow I will wear my new sweater, with my new do and feel fabulous

I also finished a paper for school today so I am finally ahead on my degree instead of behind like I have been the past few weeks. By the end of October I want to have 2 of my three classes done. That means I have until Feb to finish my last class!

I have to get to bed because tomorrow is a big dress up day at the high school so I think it will take hours to get the kids ready for school in the morning. Ugh...