Where, oh where am I?

[Lost08]

Flirting with a dangerous side tonight...stopped at a local bar/restaurant. Had a little tequila. The buzz felt soooo good.

I feel myself distancing from H and wanting to test the waters with other people. The tequila definitely frees up a flirty side. I toyed with the idea of drinking just a bit more and maybe flirting just a bit with the bartender. And then I was thinking about how long it's been since, well, since 'coffee' as someone referred to it, which led to the thoughts, "Well, why shouldn't I? H is off having an emotional and probably physical affair. Who knows if we'll ever be in a R together again? so, after all these years, why shouldn't I go and have some 'feel good' fun?

Oh, the temptation is VERY strong tonight.

Good thing I had to drive home to my children.

Forget about what to say to H when he says he misses me. What a bunch of crap.

Please tell me why I should remain faithful and loyal