Been there ... I still recall the day I seriously thought about it ... That night I set up an appointment to talk to an IC, keep in mind I came from a family and culture where real men did not talk nor express feelings. 2 years later I discovered this very mindset was one huge obstacle in my marriage and in my progress as a individual I desired to become That feeling you have, I was there. I recall a saying I stumbled upon somewhere and fogey the ex act verbiage but it was something like "True change can not happen until one has suffered in misery to the point they must chose to change to survive" I remember thinking ... Ok even if I'm alone I don't want to hurt like this any longer. The thing that caused that pain... FEAR... Fear of what would happen next, fear of me being without everything I built my life on... That fear can cripple you... I discovered in IC that was my roadblock, not my W, not her A, not my faults.... Was my fear Accept the bad days, they will happen... Typically less intense and not as long provided you look inward and start getting down to the real issues YOU have boiling inside .... My recommendation ...IC who can help you tap into that stuff because you can not really get there alone IMHO
