I have not been on much as my computer died. So a little update. I thought I was doing well detatching but this weekend proved to me that is not even close to the truth. We have had a few disagreements on Ex stating he does not want to hang out then asking us to stay for dinner on Tuesdays. This Tuesday I will be saying no. I can not agree to hang out only on his terms. Also Saturday we went to the orchard for D5's birthday. He confronted me because I would not even look at him or speak to him....Ummm why should I lol. I told him I was not upset (that was the truth) but I am just being cautious. Sunday was her party and He invited OW as her kid had gone to orchard and was at the party. She was introduced as her childs mom so he still has yet to tell everyone. which I find kind of weird as I have been gone a month and she has tagged pictures of them together no facebook with her daughter for homecoming. I was very upset he did not even have the respect to give me a heads up that she would be there instead his mom met me outside to let me know. I was so so angry with him I came home after and bawled my eyes out. It hurts me so much to think someone is taking my place and I am one step closer to not saving this R. I decided instead of ignoring him I need to put more effort into smiling and light conversation. Last night when I stopped by to drop off my daughters bag for school he was in bed so I went back to let him know I dropped it off. He started talking about the party and how well the kids were and blah blah. So I sat down on the bed and we talked for a good 20 minutes. It was nice light conversation. I felt much better about myself when I left due to keeping it friendly positive and light. I made sure I left before he could end the conversation. I had left my car running so I told him my car was running I needed to get going so I could be the one to end the conversation.
