So my current planning:

1. I have a phone coaching session with DB this afternoon. Want to make sure I do everything reasonable and healthy and necessary.

2. Have decided to go see my IC again this week...mainly to confirm how I should be handling this with the boys. They are clearly hurting and that is the main thing that really tears me up. At this point I don't feel like I've failed my wife because I feel like I've done what's necessary, however imperfectly, to show her that we can do this if we choose to. I do feel like I've failed the boys, though.

3. Getting out of town for a couple of days at the end of the month to do some fishing in the Gulf of Mexico with the boys if they can make it. One of our favorite things to do together.

4. Focusing back on work and working on the house. Several small but necessary projects that needed to get done before the holidays anyway, and also if I decide to sell the house next year. Working on the house has really helped me because it's one of those things that needs to be done and is an investment in the future just like continuing to improve myself and such is important for me to do for myself. Seeing parallels like that always comforts me for some reason.