I want nothing more than returning to my family, and to a much better M.
W filed 9/1, and since then has been nicer and afraid to start a confrontation over anything. We have had 2 L meetings, over the seperation agreements.
I get the boys 3x weekly. And I have rented a house. Kids constantly ask when I am coming home, and have ben asking W also. W wants to sit together when in public. She has asked for favors, and offered to do things for me. Has given me food at kid swaps.
3 weeks ago, W said: I know we aren't broken beyond repair It's not your fault that I am unhappy I told her that I was willing to work on us, but that won't always be the case. She angrily replied I know!
This weekend at ball, she followed me into the dugout to show me pics and talk about her day with her mom. She hasn't been doing that for a while. Little sign maybe? I didn't talk to her much at school conferences. After child support was set up, no more D talk has occurred, 3 weeks ago.
Me: Crying less, smiling more Made many new friends, and became closer to others Living on my own for the first time ever Less angry, not drinking Being a more involved dad Realize it's not all my fault, in fact this decision is hers alone Will not live in an unhappy M, would have took her back regardless a month ago Working on detachment
DB stuff: Become the best me (only a fool would leave) Have fun and GAL more, finally starting to enjoy it! Realize she has a lot of work to do now to get me back too Know that I will be ok, either way Finally realize that I have to be happier with myself to be more attractive and fun to be with Cannot waste my life waiting on her. Still hope we come back together, but won't wait forever.
Wish I never got to this point, but using it to better myself.
35 3 boys Not my circus, not my monkeys anymore....
