PP 2.0 - PigPen & The WAW (7)

[PigPen]

Thank you everybody, I turned the offer down. It was hard, but you are all correct, I'm not her friend right now and spending the evening with her would have most likely benefitted her as she knows I'm still available, but hurt me.

Early on in our separation I had made the decision that things were done and stopped returning texts, stopped reaching out etc. In my heart I had closed down a bit. She called me and we talked for over two hours. The next day she sent me a message saying she had been "filled up" by our conversation and felt so much better. I felt like the life had been sucked out of me. I have a feeling this dinner would have been similar.

Of course I dreamed of her last night night telling me how confused she is and how much she still wishes we were together. Thanks for that one brain.

Back to DB'ing for me this week. I'm holding a space of compassion for my W, I know she is also in pain and I'm acknowledging that to myself. I know that my actions caused a lot of her pain and I'm reminding myself of that when self righteous anger comes in. I'm also holding a space of compassion for myself since I too am in pain.

Thank you again for your thoughts everyone, I hope you all have a peaceful and progress filled week.

PP