Hi ((((Maybell)))) . You probably ARE depressed, and you have a lot of circumstances that would get anyone down. You need to take care of yourself, step one, and let the next steps fall into place. Can you take an antidepressant, if you're not already? They saved me, I'm telling you. They can get you through a difficult time and then you can stop them if you want to. Also see if you can make yourself work out or even take a brisk walk. Some ideas may take form in your mind while you do that, plus you'll get the anti-depressant effect of exercise. Also, for me, sometimes when everything seems like cr*p I can feel a little better by just having faith that there will be a time, a week from now or a month or a year, when this day won't looks as bad as I thought it was in the moment. Emotions sometimes pile onto an already difficult situation. Have faith that you can handle this and just wait till some time goes by and your emotions will change.
But still (((hugs))). Sorry that you feel so overwhelmed today.
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