I don't see many familiar names but yours is one. I hope things are going a bit better.
"I have no fun and nothing to look forward to. I want to be happy more than anything."
You can do this but you will have to do it yourself. What do you like to do? If you can't recall, what did you used to like to do? You can find ways to have fun again.
M: 16 years Bomb 4/07 OW 20s long gone Divorced 11/09 I remarried New Guy Cooperative r w/X regarding D