Still riding the waves

[mleigh4]

KML, so sorry to hear that about your friends aunt.

Hawho, I too can't wait for H to ask about Costco. Might seem dumb, but I am really excited about having my own membership!

Cali! I miss you around here, hope things are well with you and your family. Yes, I am doing some testing here and there since I am no longer so scared of the outcome. Rejection has become my middle name, so an unanswered text is a breeze now! The holidays are haunting me, I am so unsure of what to do, but I still have some time. My goal is to find a way for him to deal with his choice of living separate lives, but still make it clear that I am still here with door ajar, and then you sprinkle in that mix of what is best for S!! Not easy.

Decorated house yesterday, there is Halloween stuff everywhere! Lol, S is loving it. It is like we are living in a Halloween store right now.

Got random text from H yesterday, I do not normally hear from him on his free weekends. He was letting me know how much he hates his new Apple phone he got for work....which BTW I don't think I have mentioned this here....My mom and I decided to buy some random stocks about 20 years ago and Apple was one of them. As you know, the stock is doing great! I am planning on using this money someday towards S college fund. H used to be really happy for me, but as our R got worse, he started bashing Apple all the time and scowling if I brought up the stock....really strange,...I know it sounds crazy, but he gets emotional and angry when he talks about Apple, like it's a reflection of his anger towards me...He goes out of his way to let me know how much he dislikes Apple....IDK, maybe I am just sensitive....

ANYWAY, he bashed then reconfirmed that I will have S next Saturday night for our party and asked how we should handle switching the day since it is his night. He also let me know he was able to get himself a new personal phone through his IT guy at work and should have that by Tuesday.

I replied back that the Apple Android battle seems to be a personal choice for everyone, that I support Apple for S education fund! ( In the future, I am just not going to respond to his bashing, it's silly. )

I also responded that it's up to him on how he wants to handle the S day switch (not being controlling here! 180 for me) I had spreading given him a big thank you for letting us switch that night, I want to make sure I do again. I also let him know I was glad to hear he was getting a new phone and that it worked out.

No response, back to silence. Lol. I swear, the thought that goes through my mind is yes H, I am still here, you can go back to your world now.

S and I had a blast playing WII together last night. We got quite the workout!

Going to build my grave yard in the front yard now. (Que spooky laugh here!)

Have a Happy Sunday!