Thank you PigPen. The words are wise, not me. My IC has pointed out that I struggle with complements. I don't know how to manage them. I think she is correct. I am growing through my marriage difficulties but I struggle with simple human emotions.
Yesterday my wife said something that threw me for a loop. I have recovered from my emotional plunge into darkness. I realized after that in some ways I still need to do a lot of work.
My wife's silent treatment has allowed me to grow to accept and manage my life alone, without her actively in it. Yesterday when she mentioned what she had planned I got myself all twisted. I am not use to to her actively affecting me through words. I know the silent treatment is an active action but it slower, insidious in impact. I guess my defenses are set up for that kind of attack so words just get through. I also struggle with validating responses because there is so very little conversation between us. In some ways I am very far down the path and in other ways I feel like I just got of the train.
Vanilla I have not forgotten about you. Time to start on today's tasks.
