Sounds like you are well grounded and getting to that point where it's like you are looking at your life from above .... Least that's how it felt for me, was just about this time last year where like you I decided to do my own things/new traditions for the holidays
Hard telling (and no use wasting time thinking about it long) what will spark some movement one way or the other but reading you it does look like you are pushing here and there to see what your science project will do, (random text/Costco card) and that's not a bad thing.
