Tinydoc's first post, 5 months in.

[TDball]

I have been having a difficult few days. I ran into STBX on the street, and told him I wanted to spend more time with our pet, and then he tried to pry her from my hands on the sidewalk. It was awful. He was telling me that he didn't ask for alimony, money, my MD, and how I got everything and the dog is all he has. Our dog loves him, and when he finally stopped trying to physically take her, she tried to follow him down the street.

Prior to this I was doing pretty well. In retrospect I was obviously doing well because I have the dog, and felt in control and he was finally vulnerable. Seeing him brought back all of the pain and anger, and I definitely regressed and we exchanged angry texts after that, and all of my DB work went down the drain. He got to remind himself that he made the right choice by leaving, and started to ignore me again.

He told me the dog was his whole world, but he and the dog were MY world, and he took that away from me. For the past few days I've felt like I'm back to day one. I just keep going over and over the fact that my husband left me, cheated on me, said so many horrible things to me and is already dating someone else when no paperwork has even been filed. We were supposed to be a family, start our own family, and he walked away right as I'm almost too old to make that happen with someone else. I can't wrap my mind around the fact that he could do this to someone whom he promised to love forever.