Thank you Avanti for your thoughts. I guess I should say that nothing is definite in this world certainly not in mine. The fact is I did not want to be the typical angry ex who is filled with hatred and bitterness. I just can't afford to be bitter and filled with hatred for different reasons but mainly for my physical health.
Azzork- Thank you as well. Since the separation, I have been tryng to focus on me. I have moved out, stayed close to my friends and family and focused on my work. Just this past week, I have been overwhelmed with these feelings of loneliness that I have not felt in some time. I believe it was triggered by the last email I received from the WW. Nothing has changed but her lines of " I think I am going to file in a couple of weeks..." with a happy smile on the end of the sentence left me feeling somewhat nauseous.
I have been told not to care about her or what she does now with her life but is is hard. I make plans but there are days when I know I won't be going out. I guess I have to embrace it. This whole situation has left me feeling in a rotten place. I am really REALLY trying to keep my head above the water but it is very hard.
Yes... I am angry. I am angry with WW because I never thought she would do what she did. I have not been this angry in a long time.
